Post by Kenshou Ine on Oct 23, 2015 1:03:57 GMT -5
We come here, chat, laugh, and try to do something we enjoy. We never think about what will happen the next day. Whether someone will leave us of their own free will, or whether they get taken from us. All of it when we stop and think about, makes us so much more insignificant. The grand scheme and scale of things has us nothing more than a blip on the radar, come and gone in a flash.
Ally, you were taken from us far to early. You always seemed to come in to BG full of spunk and ready to kick some ass, you easily made your impression on us all here. You were a friend and a teacher. No matter what you never stopped helping people here with their apps, even when they bugged you to high noon. You always were able to make me laugh with what you were up to and the hi-jinks that got yourself into. I had the pleasure of writing with you several times, each of them left me wanting more. It's hard to think, that the story simply ends like it did.
Thank you, for the time we spent together. I will treasure the memories.
Post by Shimizu Aki on Oct 23, 2015 5:22:09 GMT -5
The only thing I feel I should do is to keep this message short. I wish I had known Ally better, really befriended her. I was intimidated by her when we first met in 2012 and when I later realised what a wonderful person Ally was, I didn't make enough of an effort to get to know her. I admired her from afar, I guess, her writing and dedication to her dreams and so many other things about her. I do know that she will definitely be missed and she will continue to live in our hearts. My deepest condolences to her family and friends. Rest in peace, Ally.
Post by Fulfillment on Oct 23, 2015 13:29:09 GMT -5
I don't understand how this could happen. Death is always sudden and unexpected, it's hard to believe it's really happened. It will take me a long time to stop expecting Ally-chan to pop into the chat box or send me a PM over some exciting new idea.
Alless really was the life blood of BG, the sort of person that characterized what we all are here for. She found a family with us, and in doing so allowed all of us to huddle up close to her and feel a sense of that spark, that ambition and straight-forward-joy with which she approached all things in life. She made BG brighter for her presence, and I think it's fitting that we dim the lights so to speak in recognition of the contribution she had. For all of us, even those who never met her or spoke with her, the lingering effects of Ally-chan will never disappear. Her light suffuses the site even still, all the things she did, all the conversations, the characters, the history, the staff work, the approvals - these things will never fade.
I will truly miss you, Alless-chan. I will miss the way you wrapped me up in your story, the way you accepted me and buoyed me and honestly tried to support me no matter what I was going through. The way you accepted me so easily and always cheerfully greeted me. I'm so thankful that I can call you a friend, that I got to know you and watch your path in life. Whenever I think of the word determined I always think of you. Your life has been and will continue to be an inspiration for me for the rest of my time here on earth.
I'm so so so sorry that your life ended so abruptly. I hope wherever you are you're at peace, and that your baby is with you. You deserve all the happiness there is and ever will be.
Thank you. For everything.
All my condolences to Ally's family and loved ones.
Post by Sobek Septicemia on Oct 23, 2015 14:26:48 GMT -5
Well, i can't say that i really knew Alless in any emotional form of way, not even in a professional way. While i find my self not shedding tears due to a lack of knowing the lovely lady and due to my own mental problems. I cannot help, but wish that the after life treats her as well as the life she had. My condolences are out for her family and i cannot even imagine the amount of grief they must be going through as i type this.
I wish the afterlife treats you well Alless. May you rest in piece.
Post by Lucian Volitare Crimson on Oct 23, 2015 15:21:12 GMT -5
Ally. You were awesome. You showed me love even when I others found me to be annoying or overbearing. Maybe even just plan old stupid. You had an amazing personality and great heart. Easily one of the coolest people that I've come to know and respect. I may not have been a friend but I could still see the greatness that was and that is your soul. You will live on forever in the memory of me and this site. I think everyone would agree to that.
May your wings stretch across the stars. And may heaven smile bright at your homecoming. Rest well and be at peace. We'll hold it down for you down here on earth.
Keep your head up BG Fam. We gotta keep this place great. For our we may have lost a friend but now we have a new set of eyes watching over us.
Post by Jasper Aizawa on Oct 23, 2015 20:32:24 GMT -5
Mortality is one hell of a drug. From all signs, you seemed to lead a good life, and I can personally attest to the quality of your character. You were always, always decent to me. Kind, fair, just. I'm so sorry we fell out of contact recently, but I'll always cherish those memories of shooting the shit in the chatbox, talking about my college apps or whatever I felt like griping about that particular day, trying to remember if you were my sister IC or not. Small things like that.
I know we're all dorks and do that cutesy crap, but we really are a family here, whether you like it or not. We just had one of our siblings ripped away from us. I dunno if that wound is gonna heal. And God, you Kris, the rest of your family, I'm praying for you all. I'm so, so sorry.
I don't really know what else to say. The ability to give the kind of memorial you deserve is far beyond my abilities. I'm gonna miss you, Alless. Be happy.
Post by Jareth Kokkusu on Oct 23, 2015 22:08:27 GMT -5
I don't even know what to say. I didn't really know you, but I know that this site has been a real help to me in terms of making it through bad days, so anyone as respected and loved as you deserves all of my respect and love. Here's hoping you have a good time with the big guy, and who knows, maybe you will meet my little brother. If you do, tell him hi for me.
Honestly, I can't say much about the woman you all knew and loved. Compared to you guys, I only knew her for a blink of an eye. I struggled for the past couple days on whether I would write anything in reference to this, not because I didn't know what to say, but I had too much to say. I'm filled with a moderate degree of sadness and an overwhelming degree of regret. I'm sorry I never got a chance to know you better, and I hope you rest easy knowing you were loved by a vast community of friends.
Post by Kokuou Munashii on Oct 25, 2015 19:13:44 GMT -5
I only learned about this yesterday morning when I noticed the thread title following someone's link to the recent posts. At first I just thought that once again Alex was going to take a extended leave from the site and writing like she had done once before. How I wish that I had been right.
I have been lucky in a way, all the people that have passed away around me had no emotional impact on me, this includes family members, either due to being virtually total strangers or well deserved personal reasons that I have no right to go into. So before this time I had a difficult time not being hypocritical in saying 'It is never easy losing a loved one/Friend/family member'. Now I can say otherwise. I cried when I learned and hell I still have to clear my eyes as I write this post.
Alex was always fun to chat with, be it about intelligent real things like medicine to the lewdish Perv Gotei moments in the chatbox. She was an amazing writer and I always felt lucky that I had a chance to thread with her and always regretted not being able to write with her more because she had chosen to invest more in Alless rather then the character I had dealings with. Still I had looked forward to what she had intended to do next and had often wondered how I could get a chance to thread with her again.
Unfortunately I never got to know her even half as much as I would have liked, yet even so I feel honored to have known her, even for the short period of time that it was. My deepest sympathies to her Family. Her time came much too soon.
Right now all I can do is raise a glass to Alex and say.
Alex, I will deeply miss you, and hope that one day we will meet again.
I didn't know Alless well, and it feels like I missed out on something great by not having known her. I talked to her a few times in the chat box and she seemed really cool and friendly. I feel terrible for all of you that were close to her, for her family and other loved ones. I will keep everyone in my prayers and I hope her memory will live on and continue to bring smiles to people and inspire those who were around her to do great things. I am truly sorry for this loss.
You were a constant. You were here when I joined and each time I've returned since then. I didn't know you. I can't say you were a friend and I have no idea what you thought of me. I respected you for whatever reason I had. I still respect you now. You're in a better place wherever it may be. I wish those that knew you best, those that loved you, and those who's life will never be the same without you strength in this time of difficulty. You'll always be missed.
I wish with my entirety that the reason I am coming back to BG today was a good one, that it was simply me grabbing Adimus and resuming the bullshit shenanigans exactly where I left off with them.
But I can't.
I admit I cried when I heard the news this morning, first thing I woke up to in fact, and it took some time to sink in, and I'm still coming to terms with the fact that you're gone.
The angriest, brightest little ball of fire and flair and sass, inspiration and attitude I ever met and you helped me out whenever I was in a funk, and I wish like hell I could help you and your family out now.
I've been trying to find the words to say for a couple days now. Trying to find something profound or maybe even something that would have made you smile. Truth be told, I didn't know you that well. Just bits and pieces from everyone, how excited others would get when you popped into the cbox. How your presence seemed to light a fire under everyone's collective asses.
I wasted my opportunity with you. I could've written with you, could've gotten to know you. I could have made time between work. But I didn't and now I regret it, regret thinking I had more time to get to know you. If anything, I'll learn from this. Not just here but in all aspects of my life.
You got so damn excited to write with me, I was taken aback. Me? You wanted to write with me? I feel like a lowly scrub sometimes but you made me smile, put that spark in me. I'm glad you had a chance to reach out to so many others. Just look at all these folks, all of them having something to say. That's special. That's just downright freakin awesome.
I never forget a kind act or a kind person. As far as I'm concerned, that's who you are. Peace be with your family, and may you rest knowing that there are plenty of people who love and miss you.
Feels weird coming back here, and to think it took the death of someone I loved just to get me to do this.
Alex, I wish I could turn back the clock and make different decisions. You always encouraged me, you always wanted better for me, and you tried hard to be with me even though I repeatedly kept pushing you away. You were the one person I knew who was as stubborn as me, I met my match in you and it both frightened and excited me. Alex, you were one of a kind and even though I turned my back on you I still care deeply for you.
I was in shock when I heard of your passing and finally the tears are falling as I type this out. Never will I forget the good times we shared RPing here, and never will I forget how you felt for me and how I should have returned your feelings in kind.
You will forever be in my heart Alex and I hope that even though things soured between us that you could be proud of what I did with my life. This hurts so badly and I wish this was just a nightmare, I wish I could see you again or just speak with you.
Alex, you changed my life for the better and I hope that you were happy in the end. May you find eternal peace and maybe someday when it's my time I can see you once again in whatever afterlife awaits.
You were a light in my darkness and a shining example of a truly good human being. The world is a worse place without you and I wish I could have gotten over myself and just spoke with you one last time.
Goodbye Alex, I love you and I am sorry for everything I've done to you
Everybody talks about how you were a spark, a firework and even a star that shone so brightly across BG. Your personality somehow permeated the black and white of the chat box and you brought joy to anyone that you talked to. You didn't just encourage my own personal growth, you encouraged the growth of others, for a long time the reason why BG grew and thrived was because you were the lifeblood. A woman with a fiery personality and a heart made of gold.
We first started chatting in the chat box back on forumsmotion, those were the golden days; back when I was still playing the senile servant to a Yuki-onna and your character a mirror of your own endless kindness. I think I told you how much you inspired me but if not, you really did. You were one of the reasons I roleplayed so avidly and were one of my greatest inspirations to improve.
A few months ago you returned to Bleach Gotei after one of your many absences over the years. Like always I assumed you would roleplay for a bit and then drift away again. I regret not finishing that thread with Freylief with you, I regret not completing one last triumphant hurrah with a simple Hollow breed and a woman named Allessandra to lead him towards his goals. But I will not regret writing with you, not even for one minute because the time I did spend crafting replies to you was the happiest I’ve been on BG in all my time here.
This . . . message took longer than I thought it would to write. Finding all the words and piecing them together, remembering all the lessons you taught me voluntarily (and involuntarily). I’ve spent a lot of time reminiscing over the days when I was an insecure and barely literate youth to the avid role player you helped shape today It comes with deep sadness that I’ll never again hear your kind words or read your messages in the chat box.
You were courageous, you were an inspiration, and you were essentially one of the kindest people I will ever have the pleasure to meet online and maybe even in the real world.
Thank you for how much you impacted me, thank you for how much you inspired me, thank you for being an influence that shaped me into the person I am today.
Thank you for everything Alex, rest easy.
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It has been some time now since I heard about it happening and since i've said that I would not reply to it in fear of mucking up the thread. In that time, I managed to figure out a few things I wanted to say anyway.
Basically, Alex has been here for a very long time, seeing as she was here before I took my Hiatus and was still here when I got back. While we never really spoke more than was needed, I always enjoyed having her around in the Chatbox as she was a nice influence on all of the people, which in turn made the whole place feel more welcoming to me.
As a lot of people know, i've never been a very emotional person, except for obvious feelings of anger and rage. I did not cry when a lot of members in the family died from things such as cancer, though I have to admit that reading the first post made in this thread, as well as the whole concept of an In Memoriam thread made me tear up simply because of how beautiful it was.
In a way, I am more happy now for breaking Hiatus and coming back early for the scarce few moments i've had to talk with her, though I will be forever sad about never having the chance to properly RP with her once. It has been something i've always wanted to do, though I was unfortunate enough to always get a hold of her when she was in a no-writing period, or when I was in one of those myself.
While i'll never be able to do that, nor actually get a chance to talk to her again and get to know her better than I did, I am still happy that I got to meet her in the first place, and that is something no one will be able to take away.
So to all of her close friends and relatives, my sincere condolences.
Thanks for being there to make things more pleasant in the Chatbox when I did not have a lot of friends on the site Alex, and may you rest in peace.
Post by Gorotsuki Tatsujin on Feb 7, 2016 21:27:40 GMT -5
I just found out about this, it is with a heavy heart that i say good bye to Ally. I don't think this place will be the same anytime soon. Ally was always a bright light to talk to and she made everyone smile and laugh. I knew she was having a couple health issues but last i had heard from her she was doing better. so to suddenly hear from keen that she had passed back in october i was hoping it was some sort of sick joke. However, that isn't the case and it hurts to know that.
Im going to miss you Ally i only wish we could have talked more often. God damn guys this... just sucks
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